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Monday, November 30, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 30

Day 30 -

Well, friends, today is the last day of November and I am happy to say that I actually succeeded at posting something everyday. :) I honestly wasn't sure that I was gonna be able to, some days a barely got it them in on time. (Much like today lol)

Anyway, today I am grateful for the amazing support system of friends and family that I have. :)

To all of you who have always supported me and continue to support me and believe in me, I want to say a huge, heartfelt... "Thank You" :)

Much Love.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 29

Day 29 -

Today I am thankful for those special moments God gives us at random, the moments where we are reminded that we are not alone. Those special moments that God creates, for the simple purpose of encouraging us.

I am also very thankful for the Brantley family. :) They have been such a huge blessing to our family and I am so grateful that God crossed our paths. :)

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 28

Day 28 -

I am so grateful for days like today where there is nothing to but enjoy doing nothing. :) It has been a while since I had a day like this, and for the most part I enjoyed every moment of it. (Only downside has been having a cold :( )

Also, I am thankful for my dad who has done his very best to take care of me and my mom today (since my mom is sick too). He has tried to get us anything that will make us feel better. :) Love you dad.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 27

Day 27 -

I am thankful to have had the opportunity to spend the day in San Diego visiting family. :) Its so wonderful to be around people that make you feel "at home" and like you belong and always have a place with them.

So, today I am thankful for all the family I was able to see and spend time with today. I love you all. :)

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 26 - Thanksgiving Edition

Day 26 -

Happy Thanksgiving!

Today I give thanks for being blessed with spending the afternoon and evening surrounded by family who love me (as well as being surrounded with amazing food!). Today I count the huge blessing that it is to have a family that I know are there for me no matter what life may throw at us and no matter how much we (*cough* Daniel and I *cough*) get on each other nerves at times haha. It was a great day today.

Today I am thankful for the people I spent the day with: Dad, Mom, Daniel, Guera, Joshua :), Harvey, Elaine, Ellie :) (And Brian and Ian for a little while too).

Much love to you all.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 25

Day 25 -

I am grateful for the wonderful day I got to spend with my grandma today. :) I love how even though my grandma always enjoys giving tangible gifts to her family she never sells short the gift of her time. No matter what lies ahead, I always have these precious moments with her, and they will always only belong to me :) I am so thankful to have the opportunity to really know my grandma, I wasn't as fortunate with my grandma on my dad's side, so I really appreciate the blessing that it is.

Needless to say, again, I am thankful for my grandma today. :)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 24

Day 24 -

I am thankful for all those "little" moments I have throughout the day that make me smile. A phone call from my dad :) A text from my mom :) A smile from my nephew :) Making cookies :) Spending time with Daniel and Guera :) Silly text messages from Jesica :) For all these "little" things and more I am thankful.

Today I would like to give thanks for my friend Miriam. Even though we have each had a crazy year, Miriam is one of those people that is still always concerned for the well being of others over herself. She is a true testament of God's love in my life. She is a wonderful friend, one of the best, without whom my life would seriously be lacking. :)

Monday, November 23, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 23

Day 23 -

I am so thankful for God's constant provision. So many times I take for granted the fact that I want for nothing. Even during some of the hardest times, He has never failed to provide all of my needs.

And today I am thankful for my friend Grace, who I saw today to help me with a special project I am working on. :) I am thankful for old friends resurfacing in the present. :)

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 22

Day 22 -

Today I am very grateful to be writing this post from my brother's house in Anaheim! :) I am spending the week here with them just for fun and also to help prepare for our Thanksgiving on Thursday. Very happy to be here with them :)

I am also very grateful for my cousin George. :) For lots of reasons that I won't list here, he is just great, both as family and as a friend. So thankful to have him in my life. Love you G! :)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 21

Day 21 -

Today I am thankful to have made it through this week. It was a tough one for me physically and emotionally, there were a couple of really bad days. Thank God that His grace is ALWAYS sufficient, even when it feels like you're hanging on by a thread. He never lets go.

I have been thankful for her and her family earlier this month, but today I want to give special thanks for Elaine Turell who is celebrating her birthday today :) If you know Elaine, you know how blessed you are to call her a friend. Today I thank God for not only bringing her into my life several years ago, but for keeping her these past ** years :) I know life has presented many challenges to her, but her resilience is inspiring. Elaine, I love you so much and thank God for you today. Enjoy your day!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 20

Day 20 -

Today I am really grateful to be feeling better. Since Tuesday I have been fighting some sort of virus off, and today was the first time I ate without feeling really sick. So, I really happy to be feeling a lot better :)

I am thankful today for my friend Blu :) We lost touch over the last several months and reconnected today. She responded as though we had never lost touch and it was so great to talk to her. Lots of love to her and her family. :)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 19

Day 19 -

Today, I am thankful for one really big thing/person...I am so very thankful that my best friend Jesica and her husband are expecting their first baby! :) It's really exciting, and I am so happy for them. I know they will be great parents and this baby is already blessed with more love than most know in a lifetime. Congrats guys! I love you.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 18

Day 18 -

This one's coming in a little late, but I am thankful to have spent some quality time with my parents, grandparents, and brother today. :) [I was missing Guera and Joshua though :)]

Today I am grateful for my friends, Enoc and Myrna (and Jake too). They came into my life a couple of years ago and right away they felt like more than friends; they were/are family. Although, our schedules make it difficult to see each other often, when we do, it is always so much fun. I miss you guys, but I am so thankful to know you and have you in my life. Thanks for all you have done and for always being there :) Love you guys.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 17

Day 17 -

Today I am so very thankful for music. I'm thankful that I grew up in a home that music was a part of (well, more than just a part...a really BIG part lol). You know by now that I am a fan of words and using them to accurately communicate something, but in my brother's house there is a picture on the wall that says "Where words fail, music speaks." Honestly, when I first read it, I was a little hurt lol, I didn't like the idea of words failing, but after thinking about it...it is true. There have been countless times where I have not had the words to describe a feeling and then I will hear a song that resonates so perfectly with whatever I may be feeling. So, today, I am thankful for the gift of music. :)

I am also very grateful for a former teacher of mine...Steve Broberg. He was my 8th grade English teacher, but he always wore the hat of a friend as well. He taught me about poetry, I can't say a ton of it stuck though (sorry Steve!), most of the time I still feel confused after reading it, but I appreciate the effort he put in to try and help me make sense of it. When I didn't do my best at something and he knew it and he didn't hesitate to tell me. Of course, these times were close to none, what with my being the perfect student and all (yeah, right!). He was one of the first people I remember knowing that loved words and language and that made a lasting impression on me, one I would return to later in my life. Steve Broberg is still a friend today and I am so thankful that God placed him in my life when he did. I hope to make him proud with some form of literary work someday, but of course this would require me to get rid of the habit I have had since Junior High of overuse and under use of commas lol. I can't ever seem to get that one right, but that's what editors are for ;) someday, anyway. Thank Steve for, well, just being you. :)

Monday, November 16, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 16

Day 16 -

Well, this month is just flying by isn't it? Day 16 already...today I am thankful to have spent and enjoyed this most beautiful day with my parents. :) It was a busy day, but a great one.

I am very grateful for my uncle Isaac. He has been there for me during some of my darkest moments and is always such a safe place of love and grace. I don't see him often, but when I do his embrace is always warm. Near or far, I can feel he cares about me, I feel his prayers and support. He has gone above and beyond just being my uncle. Since I have been able to know so few of my uncle's on my dad's side, I am grateful that I have my uncle Isaac in my life. :)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 15

Day 15 -

Today I'm grateful for books. :) Even though I wasn't always a "reader" by nature, recently I have been reading a lot more and I think it is awesome. There are so many books about so many things, I appreciate how accessible knowledge is through them. (I am especially thankful that there is a library at the corner of the street we live in)

Tying in with books, though I have never met him, I am thankful for the author Matthew Paul Turner. He is one of the most honest writers I have ever experienced, he isn't afraid to say whats on his mind and who he might upset as a result. His blog gave me the final push I needed to start my own blog here. He has inspired me as a writer and for that I am very grateful. :)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 14 (The late edition)

Day 14 -

I am thankful for love. The kind of love that leaves one overwhelmed and speechless. That love that looks beyond the outside surface and speaks to the deepest parts of us, setting us free to be nothing other than exactly who we are.

I am so very thankful for my grandpa, we celebrated his 70th birthday today. He was surrounded by love and family, I so enjoyed watching him take it all in. I am so thankful to have him in my life and I pray that he is in my life for many years to come. :)

Friday, November 13, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 13

Day 13 -

This morning it is simple, but I am so thankful that I have successfully finished a family project I have been working on this week. :) I am very happy with its outcome and look forward to sharing it with family tomorrow. :)

I would also like to gave thanks for some new friends in our life; John and Michelle. We met John and Michelle just a few short months ago and since the day my family met them, we were embraced with so much love. They have been a huge help and support to us during this time in transition and I don't think we could have done it without them. :) Thanks John and Michelle!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 12

Day 12 -

Today's post comes a little late in the day :) But I am so thankful for the ability to create. Sometimes I am overwhelmed at all that in means to be made in Christ's image. He is the Creator of the universe and all that is in it, therefore being made in his image, I have the gift of creativity; the ability to create. A lot of the time I don't know what my life would be like without that gift.

Today I am thankful for an old friend, Jason Shapiro. Jason is someone who has been in my life for what feels like a long time, and no matter how life's seasons have changed he is always around and connected. I admire Jason so much because he is one person who I have seen in action, he so beautifully embraces his God-given ability to create. Whatever he does, he does with all he has. He seeks to honor the God who created him by living a life of passion and excellence. By watching how he lives his life, I am inspired to be completely sold out to that thing inside all of us; the desperate longing to create and be a part of something so much bigger than yourself. Love you J!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 11

Day 11 -

Okay, so today my 2 thankful points are being combined as one for this special Veteran's Day gratitude. I am so thankful for all those who have fought, past and present, to create and preserve the freedoms I so often take for granted. All throughout history, lives have been sacrificed, children have lost fathers and mothers, parents have lost children, all for this country...I am so grateful for those who have had the courage to fight, I don't think I would have that courage. So, rather than one specific person, I am grateful for all those who serve and have served in the armed forces. I am especially thankful for the ones in my family who have stepped up to serve this country. Though there are several in my family there is one in particular I am thinking of today:

I never got to know him, but today I remember my uncle, Victor "Chief" Lopez who gave his life in Vietnam.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 10

Day 10 -

I am so thankful that I live in this country where I have the freedom of expression. People may not always like what I have to say, but no matter what, I am free to say it. :)

Today I am thankful for my Junior High teacher James Bove. My Junior High years were two of the best and worst years of my life and he helped me survive them. He played an instrumental role in my life, and I know I am better, stronger person today because of him. He made a lasting impact on my life and taught me so much that has continued to get me through life's hard seasons. It is very rare to come across a teacher with a true passion and love for what they do, he is one of them and I feel so grateful that I got to be one of his students. :)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Confession

Confession: Sometimes I don't write what I think or feel because I'm afraid...afraid of what exactly? Well, I guess I'm afraid of what people will think or say, who I might offend, that someone might take things I say personally etc. I don't want this to be the case, but recently it has been. I know I shouldn't be afraid, I mean hey it's my blog, if you don't like what I write then don't visit it lol. But somehow, I still fear. I'm tired of being afraid. So...this is me trying not to be afraid...

I know that it may seem like "church rants" are my thing, and I don't know maybe its one of my things, but its where I have spent so much of my life and I am very aware of things that go on in it.

Anyway, since last year's election I have been really troubled at how pastors and preachers try to speak about politics from the pulpit. From where I'm standing, mixing politics and preaching is like mixing oil and water...unsuccessful and unproductive. Last year, here in California, the "church" was very caught up on Prop 8 and on a nationwide level it launched its very own "anti-Obama" campaign. The church I happened to be at last year was very vocal about this stuff, it always made me uncomfortable. I believe we do need to stand up for what we believe in...but more importantly we need to be free to believe in whatever it is we choose to. Sometimes, blinded by ambition (and sometimes ignorance), pastors and preachers get what I call "Political-Pulpit Syndrome." [For the sake of typing less we will refer to this as PPS] PPS is the consuming idea that preaching one's own political convictions will somehow edify your audience or church members. PPS seems to be plaguing many of today's pastors, its unfortunate. Rather than unifying people, they alienate them; it sends the message that "if you don't believe in what I am preaching then you're in the wrong." The very idea that if we believe differently than a pastor we are "sinning" as though he or she knows what is right is just crazy. God gave pastors a platform to model and teach God's love and grace...and you are seriously going to get up there and tell me that if I drink, listen to "secular" music, dance, if I am gay, if I drink a brand of soda you don't support, if I don't agree with your political beliefs, or if I God-forbid register Democrat that God's grace will suddenly run out for me?! Sorry...this doesn't work for me. God gave each of us a mind of our own and with this mind we can be informed and make our own choices. I find it so ironic that in this country we are free to worship however we choose to, yet so often in the groups we choose to worship with there is way less freedom. We are not free to be who we are and believe what we believe...or at least not while we are in front of "church folk."

Here is why I believe PPS can be so dangerous: in addition to alienating people, it gives the illusion that in supporting political agendas publicly, you as pastor or preacher can be held responsible for the acts that other people with the same beliefs commit in the name of these beliefs. All throughout history there have been horrible crimes committed in the name of political beliefs...the greatest of these crimes is the heart of which they are committed; judgement and "un-love" (I feel hate is too strong of a word in this instance). Even recently I have found myself in situations where political beliefs are imposed at church and it so greatly grieves my heart. I'm not saying we need to stand up for nothing, I think its important to have beliefs and to support those beliefs; I just don't feel that church is the appropriate time or place to discuss them publicly. I think it is like playing with fire and sooner or later someone will get burned. Let me share with you what I believe:

I believe that instead of imposing political ideas and beliefs on others, we should adopt a policy of love and respect. We should love others and respect them simply because we are all a part of the human race...regardless of appearance, religious beliefs, political beliefs, or anything else that makes someone "different" than us. At the end of the day we are all citizens of humanity and from what I have learned...Jesus died for ALL of humanity so who am I to judge or disqualify someone because they may be different? I believe the cure for PPS is love...and let me say this: I do not love PPS, but I love the pastors who at times have a bad case of it. :)

What if we put our political agendas aside and just loved someone because they deserve to be loved? What if we didn't just "preach" love, but lived love? What if we used our platforms as pastors or preachers to love the unloved rather than judge them? What if The Beatles knew more about it than we give them credit for...What if all you really need is love? Can it really be that simple? Honestly...I think so.

Project Gratitude - Day 9

Day 9 -

Today I am thankful for my health and the health of the people I love.

And I am thankful for my friend Missy. :) She has been one of my biggest supporters and even on the worst days manages to be a constant ray of sunshine. She is one of those people that spreads a contagious joy wherever she goes. She is a great friend and I am so grateful that a few years ago God crossed our paths. :)

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 8

Day 8 -

Today I am grateful that I woke up without the really bad headache I went to sleep with :)

I am also very grateful for Harvey, Elaine, & Ellie Turell. They have been in my life for so long and have always been a huge source of love and acceptance. No matter what they are battling personally, they are always more concerned with how others around them are doing. They have never ceased to be an inspiration and a joy, my life without them would definitely be lacking. I love you guys!

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 7

Day 7 -



I am so grateful for the gift of writing. I can't really imagine my life without it...without being able to communicate through the written word. Since I was a little girl I have kept journals and written down whatever it is I have felt and it has been a wonderful experience. In the last year I have learned so much more about writing and I plan on continuing to learn more. I love that no matter what I may be going through there are usually words that help me get through it.



Today I am grateful for one of my college music instructors, Alex Cima. He taught me by example what it meant to find something you're passionate about and to do it with excellence. He always expected the very best from me and in doing so he brought out the very best in me. He taught me how to be a great student and though his time as my teacher is over, I still take so many of the lessons he taught me with me everyday.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 6

Day 6 -

Today I am thankful for God's protection over me and all the ones I love.

And today I am thankful for my dad who (in addition to God ;) ) has always taken the role of protecting me. My entire life he has made me feel safe and secure, more than the physical protection he has always made me feel safe and secure in his love. :) Love you dad!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 5

Day 5 -

I am very grateful today for the gift of friendship. Throughout my life God has blessed me with so many wonderful friends, some for a season, and others for much longer, they have all greatly enriched my life...and for that I am so grateful. Moving to a new city recently I have missed my friends tremendously, but I know that near or far, they are always there. :) Thank you for that!

Specifically, I am so thankful for my best friend Jesica :) We have been friends since Junior High, (which is a miracle in and of itself, we're all such punks in J.H. lol) and remained in constant contact ever since. Very few days go by when we aren't texting each other meaningless nonsense all day lol. She has always been a huge support system to me no matter what struggles I face in my life, we laugh together, she cries, and somehow we make sense of each other when we fail to understand ourselves. If you aren't jealous of me yet you should be lol...she is the friend you want to be in your corner when you're up against the biggest, scariest monster life can send your way. Love you Jes!

(I would just like to add that my spell check highlighted the word "texting" as being incorrect and suggested that I was trying to spell "testing" or "exiting"...strange that "texting" is not in its vocabulary yet. Hmm. )

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 4


Day 4 -


Today I am so thankful for God's unwavering grace and temperament. On my worst days, He looks at me no different than on my "best" days. When I don't have it in me to give myself the grace to have a bad day, He always does. And what amazes me even more is that He doesn't expect me to have only good days and a permanently positive attitude (like people so often do.) And He doesn't judge me on days when I find it hard to be grateful. I'm so thankful that to Him, on any day and everyday I am enough just as I am. Period.


I am so, so, so thankful for my beautiful nephew. :) I'm thankful for him pretty much everyday, but today especially. So often, he represents everything good in the world. No matter what kind of day I may be having, he always greets me with his smile that can light up the darkest rooms. He has complete joy and he makes it contagious. I pray that he fights for that joy when life tries to rob him of it. Much love to nephew today. :)

Try and tell me that he didn't just make you smile? :)

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 3

Day 3 -

Today I am simply happy and thankful to be alive. :)

And I am especially thankful for my Grandma Eva today. She is always loving, caring, gracious, and so much more. Her house is where you want to go on those days you want to escape the harshness of daily life. Her unwavering faith in God and His ability to take care of us and always provide has been the very thing that has helped sustain me through the hard times. I love her more than I can tell you and I feel so grateful to have her and know her.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 2

Happy Monday! :)

Day 2 -

I am so grateful for a safe and comfortable place to live. There are so many even in our own cities that are without safe homes. My family may have had some financial struggles throughout this last season in our lives but we have never been without a place to live, and for that I am so thankful.

Today, I want to express gratitude for my big brother, Daniel :) He is one of my biggest supporters and always has been, and he is always there to be a friend and inspiration. He is always a great sounding board for any crazy ideas I might have and always honest as to whether or not they are good ideas :) He is an incredible brother, friend, son, husband, and father. I am proud to have him as my brother and so thankful for him.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Project Gratitude - Day 1

Today is November 1st and I have been absent from posting here for almost a month, there are a long list of excuses I can give you, but the bottom line is I just didn't. I have missed it and I am tired of missing it...so I'm back! :) lol

So, to get things going I am challenging both you and I to a little something :) Now is the time of year when to do lists get longer, days seem to get shorter, and we all just hope to survive the holiday craziness...I'm proposing something simple; let's make Thanksgiving a lifestyle rather than a once a year holiday. I know we are all grateful throughout the year, but personally, its not a part of my daily life the way I would like it to be. It is not something I am proud of, but it is truth. How quickly would I run out of "the usual" things to be grateful for and have to start searching for more? How might my outlook on life be altered if I spent my day "searching" for things to be grateful for? I'm curious, so here is what I am challenging "us" to do:

For myself, I am going to try to do one blog post everyday (in addition to these daily posts, I will get back into blogging about all of the other fun random stuff :) I usually blog about) and in that post I will write 2 things: One thing (thing, place, experience etc.) that I am grateful for, and one person I am grateful for.

In your own way I challenge you to do the same :) If you want to share it as a comment that's fine, or maybe you wanna keep it to yourself in a journal, or maybe just tell someone what you're grateful for everyday. Maybe this can help us not get so bogged down by the business of heading into the holiday season...and if not...maybe its just a good thing to do.

Day 1 -

Today I am grateful for 64 colors and everything it has meant to me. It has been a huge creative outlet that has kept me "sane" (or nearly sane lol) a lot of the time. It has been such a gracious place for me to work things out and mostly it has been a place of tremendous growth for me. It has been my beginning, "beginning of what?" you might ask... I'm still figuring that out, but I feel it has been the start of something. I know without it I would have lost it at some point.

Today I am grateful, not for one specific person, but rather a whole group of people...you. My readers. :) You all inspire me to continue doing what I love. Writing is something I get so much joy out of and you all double my joy every time you let me take you along for the ride. So I am grateful for you and to you. Thanks for reading!