You're probably wondering how I found my miracle in this...I realized that my miracle, in its simplest form is that I still believe. It may sound funny, but with all that the last few years of my life have brought, I've had my share of bang ups, and set backs. Some that would cause most of us to give in to doubt. And many times I have, but I'm always brought back to my core, my faith, my life line. And regardless of all my doubt, fear, hurt, anger...and everything that comes along with difficult times...I still believe. I still have a God who looks beyond all of my brokenness that still looks at me with love and grace. "Even what I don't see..." He helps me believe.
All of this led to the new realization of an old truth...yes it is a miracle that after being jaded and confused I can still stand on my faith...but more remarkable than that is that God still believes in me! With all the mess that I am so much of the time, He still believes in me! Talk about a miracle!
As we continue to place our belief and hope in Him it opens our eyes once again to the truth that He believes in us. The battle then becomes believing what He believes about us. I don't know if this resonates with you in any way (I hope it does) but I still wanted to share with you what has been going on within me. I hope you're encouraged. It's so relieving to know that even when everything else around us says otherwise...God doesn't give up on us; no matter how broken.
SO, again I find myself feeling the need to apologize for my lack of blogging. I really have no excuse. I have a lot of time on my hands right now and for some reason feel "distracted" by everything around me BUT my blog. I would like to think that thenegligence is over, but I have no guarantees.
Anyways, moving on, updates! (in no particular order)
Joshua is in the early stages of walking, which is one of the most exciting (and exhausting) things to experience with him.
I went on a job interview a few weeks ago, but did not get it, for reasons unknown to me. It seems to currently be working out okay because with my schedule WIDE open I am able to take advantage of an awesome opportunity to get away for a bit. Which brings me to the next one...
I will be flying alone for the first time in about a week and a half (and for only the second time in my life, the first I really don't remember, so lets be real, its my first time flyinghaha) to Northern California to spend some time with a friend. I'm really excited about it :)
Oh, here's a fun one. I completely missed Easter this year. "How?" you might ask...well its because I was nearly dying. (And yes, the word "dying" is a little bit of an embellishment.) The weekend of Easter I came down with what was quite possibly THE worst flu of my life. I really didn't think I was gonna make it...but all is well. I survived, but not without missing church on Easter...for THE FIRST time in my life haha.
Joshua will be one in exactly 3 weeks. It's insane.
And lastly, today marks the one week countdown to my 22nd birthday. Also insane. This year has just flown by.
Now, friends, I leave you with a few pictures to brighten your day :) Until next time!
"Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I've got a few missing. It's ok though, because I've got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. I have a bit of a problem though in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation.. so when I meet someone who's an 8-color type.. I'm like, "hey girl, magenta!" and she's like, "oh, you mean purple!" and she goes off on her purple thing, and I'm like, "no - I want magenta!" -John Mayer-
I read this quote and loved it instantly! I must admit though that I was a little biased considering I'm a huge John Mayer fan, but still it made me think...How often do we cheat ourselves simply because we get stuck in an 8-color rut? Or worse than that, a 2-color one, where all we see is black and white. Anyway, I just loved the analogy. It serves as a constant reminder to always keep an open mind and heart to all things, all colors. Each one of our lives is a work of art started by The Master and Creator, but it is up to us after that to decide what it is we will do with it. Sure, its perfectly fine to just use the 8-colors but how much more beautiful and vibrant will your life be if you use all the colors that are available to you? I have been truly blessed with the people and experiences that have added so much to my life so far. I will not deny however I have known some people and experiences that are some of the ugliest colors I have ever seen but at the end of the day it has allowed me to appreciate the beautiful ones all the more. I don't want to be a person that misses out terribly on all the amazing things ahead of me just because something is a new color that maybe I've never seen before and wastetime trying to figure out which one of my 8 colors it is. I want to remain open to new things and new combinations of old things. I don't want to place 8-color barriers on my life, I want to live it and experience it fully. And I challenge you to do the same...and let's see what kind of masterpiece we make of it...So to wrap it up here, this is my blog, it will be random and unpredictable but its a place where I can just throw stuff out there, a place to sort out my thoughts, raw and uncut. Also, as an added bonus its a place where my friends and family can check in from time to time since everyone is all over the place. It's just me. (And for my family that is scattered throughout, the occasional update on Joshua too) That's all.
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