The Sun Is Setting...

...On 64 Colors.

Some time ago I mentioned a redesign and possible relocation and both have finally arrived. Next Monday, February 1st I am setting out on a new venture and I am hoping you all will continue to join me for the ride.

My heart is filled with so much joy when I think of all that 64 Colors has been for me. It has been my true start. It is where I have taken some risks, learned some lessons, been through some pain and sadness, experienced immense happiness and ultimately began to find the definition in my writing. When I started out I thought I would maybe try my hand at writing…now about a year and a half later I know this…

I am a writer.

I am truly honored that you have been a part of all of it.

All mushiness aside I have an official announcement!!! It is with so much excitement that I can now do this...

Introducing…

Please make sure to check www.fearlessdialogue.com this coming Monday (you can go there now for an official countdown), February 1st for the official launch of the site! As well, as an in depth look into what "Fearless Dialogue" is. I really believe I have been given a vision and I am so excited to finally share it with you!

Voice Lessons

First off, let me apologize for deceiving you with the title of this post. I have not discovered my hidden talent for singing and enrolled in actual voice lessons. Sorry to disappoint some of you. ;)

Instead I want to share with you a little about where my recent life journey has taken me. There are plenty of mundane details I can share with you but I think I will just sum it all up by saying that life for me, like so many of you, has felt like it is more than I can handle. I have to admit, that I have not handled it in the best way…a lot of the time I have felt so ill-equipped to cope with my life’s circumstances that I tried to stop feeling things with the hope that I would stop experiencing them. Not a healthy coping mechanism, I know, but it was the only way I felt I could survive. I have recently learned that this is not the truth. Well, in the midst of all of this I could not bring myself to blog. In my perpetual state of pity partying I felt I had nothing positive or uplifting to write about.

Day by day, step by step, I am returning to my creativity...and to my writing.

Looking at everything I have been going through and feeling the last few months I would say now, that I simply lost my voice. Well, maybe I didn’t lose it, I just stopped listening to that voice inside…I’m not entirely sure. All I know is that I felt sick, unable to speak, the voice of my soul silenced, my mouth moving but no sound coming out. But, enough is enough. Little by little my “voice” has been coming back. I am reminded that I have something to say; the story of my life being written, the canvas of my life still lacking so many colors. I’m not voiceless, I’m not finished.

And neither are you.

I don’t know what you may be facing in your life right now, I don’t know how unbearable it may feel, but I know that you still have a voice. We cannot lose our voices. They contain the very essence of who we are; children of The Divine. No matter how difficult things may seem, no matter how impossible the circumstances feel, that voice inside must continue shouting from the depths of your soul that with God all things are possible!

We must not and cannot go through this life voiceless; the world needs us to speak out. To speak out about God’s love, God’s grace, God’s possible impossibilities. We are not finished! All of life’s struggles and difficulties are our “voice lessons”…lessons to show us that we have a voice, lessons to teach us how to use our voice, lessons to show us just how powerful our voices can be!

So, how’s your voice doin' these days?

With a Heavy Heart...

I am writing this today with a heavy heart. My heart goes out to my earliest childhood friend, Maleigha, who yesterday lost her 21 month old baby girl tragically to sudden illness. I cannot begin to imagine the pain that she is experiencing. Baby Mattalyn was the pride and joy of not only her mother, but her grandparents, aunts, uncles, and great grandparents. Today their hearts are broken, their world has been shaken, and life as they knew it may never be the same. I am asking you today that you join me in praying for this precious family who are facing what no one should have to face.

+ Pray that God's grace and mercy carry them through this difficult time.
+ Pray that God would guard their hearts in the midst of their pain and grief, that they would know he is near them during this time and always.
+ Pray that they would find strength in each other.
+ Pray that in the midst of all the questions, God gives them peace.

To Maleigha and the entire Ornelia family, we are with you and praying for during this difficult time. Our hearts are broken with you. Much love goes out to you today and in the days ahead.

Project Gratitude - Day 30

Day 30 -

Well, friends, today is the last day of November and I am happy to say that I actually succeeded at posting something everyday. :) I honestly wasn't sure that I was gonna be able to, some days a barely got it them in on time. (Much like today lol)

Anyway, today I am grateful for the amazing support system of friends and family that I have. :)

To all of you who have always supported me and continue to support me and believe in me, I want to say a huge, heartfelt... "Thank You" :)

Much Love.

Project Gratitude - Day 29

Day 29 -

Today I am thankful for those special moments God gives us at random, the moments where we are reminded that we are not alone. Those special moments that God creates, for the simple purpose of encouraging us.

I am also very thankful for the Brantley family. :) They have been such a huge blessing to our family and I am so grateful that God crossed our paths. :)

Project Gratitude - Day 28

Day 28 -

I am so grateful for days like today where there is nothing to but enjoy doing nothing. :) It has been a while since I had a day like this, and for the most part I enjoyed every moment of it. (Only downside has been having a cold :( )

Also, I am thankful for my dad who has done his very best to take care of me and my mom today (since my mom is sick too). He has tried to get us anything that will make us feel better. :) Love you dad.

Project Gratitude - Day 27

Day 27 -

I am thankful to have had the opportunity to spend the day in San Diego visiting family. :) Its so wonderful to be around people that make you feel "at home" and like you belong and always have a place with them.

So, today I am thankful for all the family I was able to see and spend time with today. I love you all. :)